my complicated life

even if my life is complicated, i'm someone you can talk to.. someone who can understand.. someone who'll always be there no matter what..

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Location: California, United States

Monday, August 27, 2007

after a month and 2 weeks

after a month and 2 weeks... i'm still not that ok... he doesn't nag me that much, he doesn't tell me what should i do, he doesn't tell me who i should spend time with or not... basically he's been trying to adjust to what i think is right or what most people think is right... but how do we know if what we thought is the solution to our problem is not the solution it self? why do i ask such? it's because even if i know he's not doing anything bad or wrong, it still annoys me... there are really times wherein he doesn't even cross my mind.. there are times i don't feel like seeing or being with him... this makes me feel bad about myself... i'm sooo mean... but i don't really know why am i like this :( i kept thinking of reasons why am i still unhappy... the fact that i know he's already doing what i wanted him to do in the first place.. to try and accept me as me.. a friend told me "you will really be miserable if everything little bit of yourself is being "corrected" or being asked to be changed.." i guess that's the reason i don't want compromises.. because i'm thinking that he's still changing me in a way or two if we compromise... but then my friend said " birds are meant to fly , what if i like the bird and i love the bird but i want to cage it it'll die... for sure... the compromise there is i'll let it fly but she has to promise to get back on the cage..." i didn't think of that honestly.. thanks to him.. but how would tell this to my bf? and what if after telling him this i'm still not happy? what do i do???

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